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Dear you,

I know it's been time and given the fact that I had one flabbergasting and phenomenal semester, it might come a little surprising to you that I hadn't written to you in a while. There's so much to write and the problem is I was so overwhelmed and couldn't choose what to write upon. While I was still deciding on the subject, Delhi came along, or better put, I came to Delhi and life was good once again after two years and I had no time to document it.


Now, after almost three months of aloofness, I don't think it'd be appropriate to write about one particular topic or incident. So, I'll talk about life at large and in general. There have been great learnings in the recent past for my interested mind. However, one great categorisation of issues has been made on the personal level. My life's issues and thought procedures necessarily fall into three basic classes. These happen to be

a)Economic philosophy and choices

b)Relationships

c)mode of work and life


And as I think of it, if I can come up with satisfyingly broad and deep theories in these three contexts, life is made. I'll have a sense of sustained foundations which can guide me all along.


There's one underlying principle which carries half of these theories on it's shoulders and this important principle is - “I'm selfish and place myself above everyone else.” Simple and outrageous as it might seem, I beg to make the point that this mode of living is reasonably tough and gives a sense of happiness and a strong logical backing for my life's decisions and ventures. The fact is everyone's gotta be selfish in the basic primary sense. (Almost) everyone's got their set of senses and appendages which make them self equipped with the basic mechanisms of sustaining oneself. And the faculty of reasoning tops this particular list of one's personal equipment. I wouldn't give you any argument involving god but going by simple reason itself, we tend to understand that each person is accountable to oneself and each person is to find his/her self most reliable. Simply said, it's you who's going to stay with yourself all your life. You come to your rescue when in need and you sustain yourself when necessary. And there, my friend, lies the selfishness I was telling you about. Love yourself and take care of yourself cuz there's no one else and even if someone's out there for you, they have themselves to take care of.I don't say you don't love somebody or that you should stop paying attention but you should realise that your soul or body is what needs most of your attention and it's only when you can trust yourself and confide in yourself that you can provide any sort of support to anybody else. I ideally stick to that... love myself and then give attention to other folks as good as I can.


When I speak of economic philosophy, I'm using a total misnomer for the actual issue that I intend to speak of. You bet I'm talking about the two major 'isms' that held the world in tension for quiet sometime. However, I'd like to drive away any impression in your mind that I probably understand the fundamentals of these two economic theories. I only have a vague idea and I shall thus not take the name of either of these monumental ideologies. In any case, while thinking of whatever little I know of these two ideologies,I've thought of two different ends and I've come up with a satisfying theory.

Imagine you are had never known your faults or you know your strengths are too good. You just can't fail,say. In this state of existence there are grand chances that you'd say of other people- “Too bad they ain't as good as I am. I'm born to be successful and let the losers go to hell.” You'd tend to believe that you,by some conspiracy of the universe, are destined to be successful and you'd even tend to think that you are working for yourself and for your betterment and why should anybody be given the credit for your hard work.

And then imagine you had been unlucky enough to face poverty or some sort of misfortune like a handicap or absence of a skill which happens to be there in almost everybody in your immediate environment. You'd feel worried cuz, visibly,you're not in luck's valuable favour. And you'd think life's so unfair and if you ought to be punished because you were not born strong and intelligent, well... there's something utterly screwed up with the existing system of the world. You would also realise that there are loads and loads of people who have weaknesses and it doesn't make sense to design a system which is so centric to some particular breed of capable folks. You'd want equality and love for everybody.


And now that I've given you the basic streams of thought I 'll put in the vital binding thread here – everyone has strengths and weaknesses of their own. If you see what I mean, it is impossible to find the perfect human who has no strengths whatsoever or no weaknesses whatsoever. Even the most capable person relies on society for a normal living. He/she might be utterly talented in one field but he/she would have to rely on the society, would have to use public systems and fundamentally would have to outsource under any circumstances. To put it best, neither you,nor I, the only two components of my world are not too perfect to not have our own ailments and drawbacks. We had rather learn to be humble because we might be better than a few but we are still within the limits of nature. The inverse logic applies too to know that we have our own strengths and it's our industry that we should rely upon. This also helps us respect each other for whatever strengths and capabilities we have. With that kind of a disposition, I'd really have no reason to feel inferior or superior to you and I'd be able to respect you and respect myself with no specks on my character.

Coming to relationships, I haven't as yet come up with a complete theory or philosophy which satisfies all my queries or might be deemed foolproof at least within my domain. I've started to think and I'll tell you soon . will keep writing more often,
love,
prathyush.